Search My Heart Lord

As I was sifting through my thoughts and actions over the past few days the scripture in Psalm 139 verse 23 came to my mind.

Search me, O God, and know my heart;
    test me and know my thoughts.

Psalm 139:23 NRSV

I was in a conversation with God. Asking Him to look at my heart. To search through it. To check out it’s spiritual rhythm and readjust it if need be.

Upon looking up the scripture in my Bible, to make sure I remembered it correctly, my glance fell upon the next verse, 24.

See if there is any wicked way in me,
    and lead me in the way everlasting.

Psalm 139:24 NRSV

My thoughts exactly. If I have done any wrong, had any bad thought, said something, I should not have said or should have said, forgive me Lord.

My intentions of the heart were for good, but I don’t always get it right.

I need you to lead me, Lord. I am so weak, get it wrong so often, that I need saving. My Saviour come and save me every day.

Help me with my heart, and so with my mind, my words. Help me that I stay close to you and do the best that I can. Fill in the gaps that I know I have.

Sometimes my lack is not sin but just not perfection. Me being faulted. Others being faulted.

But to be truly honest, sometimes it is my sin. My wrongdoing, my pride, my selfishness that caused the issue. Caused the problem that arose.

Being a Catholic the Act of Contrition Prayer then came to my mind.

O My God, I am heartily sorry for having offended You, and I detest all of my sins because of your just punishments, but most of all because they offend you, My God, who are all good and deserving of all my love.

I firmly resolve with the help of your grace, to sin no more and to avoid the near occasions of sin. Amen.

I know even if I don’t have these words but ask sincerely for the Lord to forgive me. He does.

He accepts me back with open arms into His embrace and encourages me to continue to live in His Kingdom Ways with His help. His grace that is available to all who ask for it.

Thank You Lord!

Are there times you need to have a heart to heart with God? To face issues with Him? And to start again? Always with His Grace.

May these jottings from my journal inspire you to believe in and fall in love with Christ- the hope of the world, as stated in Jeremiah 17:7, ‘Blessed is the man who believes and trusts in and relies on the Lord and whose hope and confident expectation is the Lord!’

Love

Rosemary

Every week groups of ladies meet together to chat about the things I raise in my weekly blog post and to chat about life in general. We call these ‘Heart Connect’ groups.

DISCUSSION QUESTIONS

When was the last time you had a heart to heart with God? What did He say?

If you did it again what do you think He would say this time?